everything

It has been just about forever since I have written. And I apologize. My life is a bit crazy right now with midterms and work and EVERYTHING just piling up on my plate. Yet with all of this craziness, I am bored. I went away for the week-end up north, and it was amazing. And I really didn't want to leave..because I had nothing to come back to. School is blah, work is blah, EVERYTHING is blah. I am just going through the motions of life and it is slowly driving me mad. I need to do something significant with my life. Right now it feels like I am just stuck doing mudane junk that doesn't matter. Why can't EVERYTHING be significant and important.

You are all that I want.
You are all that I need.
You are EVERYTHING.

Sorry, I am listening to that song by Lifehouse and it is a pretty amazing song. Definitely doing it at camp this summer. Camp...wow....I am so excited for the summer again. When I am at camp, I feel alive. I feel like myself. I am happy and content with where I am. I love waking up in the morning and knowing that the day ahead is going to be amazing and God-filled. How do I make that happen here...in Waterloo? waterpoo...is more like it.

Find me here.
And speak to me.
I want to feel you, Lord.
I need to hear you.

I am sick of listening to my roommates talking about irrelevant things...I am sick of talking about irrelevant things. I am starved for a real conversation. Even at the cottage, we didn't talk about anything important.....we didn't pray together except for meals. I want the camp community back. I want it right here. That is when I feel like I am alive.

And how can I stand here, with you?
And not be moved by you.
And would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this.

Life can be better than this. Way better.