Blimey Watson, I think she's got it!!

Alright, so I was thinking tonight....and overanalyzing just like every girl does...and I figured out why my summer relationship didn't work....it was a combination of different things but mainly because of my first point. So here we go:
#1: Our relationship looked like everyone elses from the outside. We got into it physically very fast and that made it similar to every other secular (I don't know it that is the right word) relationship out there. And our relationship was different, we got along amazing, thought similarly yet different but it was awesome and we just gelled...and I was comfortable but in that physical aspect we were the same as every relationship he and I had had with anyone else. And it hit me tonight although he pointed it out before the summer was even over, that that was it. Our relationship was different but we didn't make it different from the physical perspective and that is basically, I think, what tore us apart. Everything needed to be different about our relationship to last the long haul instead of making it into a summer fling, which I definitely didn't want it to be. But we didn't.
And similarly #2: we didn't set boundaries in the beginning and when we did, it was too late. It was hard to go back and say, "nope, we can't do that anymore".
#3: I think possibly....because we have such a connection (we are pre-determined friends for crying out loud) that he got scared. And I was scared too...it was a big deal for me to be actually dating one of mybest friends...but I jumped into it (after alot of debating of course). And I think he did too without thinking about it (he was just waiting for me to decide) and then looked back and said "what have I gotten myself into"....and the reason why he is scared is that he is not at that point in his life to have that deep of a relationship which brings me to my next point..............
....#4: We are at different stages of our lives...I am in university (which means I potentially know what I want to do with the rest of my life...but everyday it is looking like I don't....but that is a whole new topic) and he is in an art's program. Which is awesome but he's figuring out what to do next...and I am tied up for the next three years finishing off this stinkin' degree. And it is hard to be on different levels and be thinking about a serious relationship when you have no idea where the heck you are going to be or what you are doing in the year to come.
And finally, #5: We weren't communicating. We talked about everything but what was going on. And in the last dreaded week of our "dating", we totally broke down and he avoided me for a week while trying to figure out what to do. When really, we should have been talking through it together. Communication is key.
...I felt the need to write this down and share it with people....not that I know if anyone even reads the shtuff I talk about...but anywho...I have been struggling with getting over him for about over two months now...and I needed to sort out my thoughts and this is a great way to do it and get feedback. I don't know what I hope to accomplish from this....all I know is I have to pick up the pieces and trust that God will keep care of both of us and if we happen, then we will happen and we will know what to fix. Alright, c'est fini! God Bless!