Most awkward week-end ever...

Wow....I feel like a complete ass. When people give me the hint that they are busy that week-end and things just "came up", I should really take it as a hint that they don't want me to come over...Honestly, if you don't want me to come over, TELL ME!!! It turns out that a very good friend that I visited this week-end, who I had hoped might possibly be more than friend in the future (I've liked him for as long as I have known him), has had a semi-relationship (nothing official) going on for two years...TWO YEARS!! And he never told me...never mentioned her or took it into consideration when I told him I liked him. And they just happened to find eachother on Saturday night and I was there too...oblivious that they were into eachother until they start holding hands in the car!! Can you say awkard? To top it off I spent the whole night with his friends who I don't really know and they are all joking around and I got nothin' to say because they don't know me and I don't know them.....ACK!! What a kick in the pants!!! I am so done with relationships....it is truly time to be satisfied by being single and satisfied with God and trusting that He will fill my needs completely, like nobody else can. Nobody else can, Rachel, nobody else can.