the wall.

you know that point in a relationship when something changes - either one person's feelings, or attitude or perspective on the relationship - and you can literally feel a wall go up between you. when you feel like you were on the same page, and then one of you turned the next page over without waiting for the other one to catch up. when you feel like that person who once had your back on anything, no longer will stand by you. and no words can be said to change it or go back to how it was before. that wall that is stopping you...it sucks.

i was just watching a show and they portrayed that wall quite well, and it just reminded me of times when i felt that same way. and it gave me this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. so how do we avoid this feeling? i cannot wait until i am in a relationship that i don't have to worry about that. the trust, the intimacy, the faith, it will be there. i won't have to be on edge, wondering where the other person is at or whether things could change in an instant. where things will be talked about, and decisions are made, together. we can dream and even if our dreams are separate ideas, we will get to them, together.

it will be a wall-less relationship.
and i cannot wait.

forget. apologize. promise.

forget. forget. forgot.
it is all i hear.

i am sorry. i really am sorry. i'm sorry.
that is all you say.

do you know that apologizing is a promise to never do it again?
do not make promises you cannot keep.
promise not to promise anymore.