in slow motion

or probably even @ a standstill.

i just read my last blog and it is still completely relevant and i still have no answer.
how am i still in the same place as i was 8 months ago?

i need to change something. i like where i am living but i feel like i am missing something. do i need to go somewhere to find what i am looking for? or can i find it here, if i look harder?

i also need to buck up the courage to find the answer to the question that i have been thinking about for SOOO long. even if i don't like the answer, an answer will certainly make me move, one way or the other.

but its easier to just sit here and wait. patiently.

flip rach. just do it. what do you have to lose?